"Clarity"

It's been a long few weeks, a lot has changed, like a lot!

Where to start...Well first things first, three members of my family got new jobs, including myself!!! So I hand in my two weeks tomorrow! Crazy! I've worked with this company for 3 years and the people I work with are amazing and even one of my best friends works with me so it's going to be really hard to leave, time for a party!

The new job is offering me a 65% raise and he wants me in a leadership roll, to lead technicians and after that he's eager to get me into management! So how could I resist??

Another thing is all three of my sisters moved out! Yeah they got a 3 bedroom townhouse on 72nd ave. 

so as much as I'm happy to not be sharing my basement suite with Lisa-Anne it's totally a sad time and I'll miss all three of them, were tight! 

Some really hard things have hit my family including cancer and another real horrific situation so we are learning to deal with that, the guy from my work with cancer survived his operation and that's a real huge relief, his arm also wasn't amputated which really is the best result.

A few other things are going on here and there but those are the big chunks of news.

Monday is a start of a girlfriend and I beginning a workout regime for Tough Mudder and the summer! We're determined to hit our goals so we have some plans in motion to stay accountable to each other! I've lost 45lbs already and I'm determined to lose another 35! I want to be for and healthy, especially for when I begins family!

I seriously can't believe it's March already, I remember March of last year as if it was yesterday, it's amazing how things can change, you think your headed one direction and things come to light and your forced down another road, but this one isn't a culdisac where your forced to turn round this one seems to stretch on and on.

Seth is back from Asia this week so plans have been made for that! Anyway I better get to bed it's getting late and tomorrow is going to be a huge change in direction for me.

Wish me luck.

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Well looks like I got 1005 page views as of today, maybe it's the fact I haven't talked much about health & fitness yet! Haha 

That day is coming when this blog is solely dedicated to that, I'm hoping more & more that day comes soon, I know it will. 

This week has sucked but today I felt somewhat better.

I think it's really about trying to control your thoughts otherwise anger prevails and you lose touch on the reality of the situation. Realizing your not the only one who has/been going through this situation.

Being thankful for what you've got that's important & knowing the people you care for most are happy now.

Silverstar and the fading shooting star :(

Just got back from silverstar resort where I tried snowboarding for the first time in 8 years. Kinda rough start but one of my buddies sisters hadn't been snowboarding so we both decided to get a lesson which really helped. We were the only two in the class which was great so the teacher was really able to focus on us both.

By the second day we were doing some of the green runs on the mountain...I'm not gonna lie it was nothing pretty but I made it down twice. I got super frustrated at some points but at the same time I made huge improvement in the first 4hrs of snowboarding so I'm proud of myself. 

It was so exhausting and a lot harder than I had imagined but all my friends were super awesome and nice.

Mike & I spent most of our nights in the hot tub which honestly I couldn't imagine doing it any other way, so many aches!

So overall the weekend was enjoyable and relaxing, I hadn't seen a lot of my friends for a while so it was nice to hang out with them on the long weekend.

My eating was way off but I'm hoping the snowboarding took care of the junk, starting tomorrow I've gotta get back into it! 

someone had told me some really frustrating news on our weekend away which put a huge damper on the weekend but I had kinda had an idea before the person told me that something had been going on but what can you do? when there's nothing you feel you can do! 

Actually snowboarding was mentally exhausting and comparable to the news i had heard...you get so frustrated because  you see everyone else succeeding.....& you can't make it work and even though you feel you've tried everything in your power to figure things out and you want nothing more in the world but to 'snowboard' at that moment you forced to let go of the thought that its going to work out, forced to move on and hope that one day you'll end up feeling better about it, maybe not today or next month or even a year from now but maybe one day. See! Snowboarding can be applied to all situations! You fall down and sometimes you don't want to get up...you want to stay down thinking and going over what you could and should have done better and how it all went wrong that maybe you'd rather hang out in the snow and stare at the mountains and think about that, running over everything in your head, over and over and over until you feel sick rather than get back up and try something new....like skiing. Lol

Man can I talk a lot of garbage or what! 

Anyway snowboarding was hard, I'd like to do it again so hopefully I'll get invited out again and see more of Canada.

Peace Out.

Sick as a Dog

Man, four days I've spent in bed. I got ill on Thursday morning and have been in bed or on the couch ever since. 

So workouts have been non-existent and I've just had my first meal in four days which consisted of chicken nuggets and a handful of potatoe wedges. :/ 

I go back to work tomorrow so I guess we will see how things go. I still feel like crap! :(

So apart from that nothing to report, just felt the need to check in. Lol.

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Story of My life

Man a whole week went past without me blogging! This week has been really crazy and I'd fill you in on my whole week but this is a fitness blog so no time for ALL that! 

Who knew I'd title a blog post on a 1D song! Haha this one girl would laugh her face off if she knew I'd done that!

What I will say though is this week something has really been on my mind, this week has made me think a lot about death and what little time we have on this earth. Life can really be taken away from us at anytime, without warning or the chance to say goodbye. 

I heard this 1D song on the weekend and it really resonated with me, the video is actually pretty descent too.

I think for the first time in a long time im realizing more and more that life is so fragile. I think a lot of times we coast along and think of ourselves as untouchable, superman like, that nothing bad can happen to us or our loved ones. This week I realized more than anytime in my life that, that's not the case. I'm realizing that I need to spend time with those who I love and those who are a positive influence & support me, if its one thought thats resonated is that time is precious. I need to make changes for the better, the one guarantee in life is that death comes to us all.

 I moved to this country for a reason, for one reason and I need to continue to do what I came here to do, for too long I've allowed distractions to come into my life, to compromise...i cant even begin to consider the idea of compromising who i am!! I have to begin to write the story of my life. 

ok ok ok onto fitness! i'm doing a program called Body Beast and I did all 6 workouts last week. It was painful getting back into the swing of things with the excersize and nutrition but I'm getting there. I just really need to home in on the nutrition and I'll be golden. The workouts are very weight orientated so I'm trying to squeeze in HIIT's when I get the chance to keep my cardio up. Other than that there's not much to report other than I've  turned my basement into a home gym! Haha. I also go back to BCIT starting this Wednesday and I'm not looking forward to it I'm hoping I can get my workout in before It starts. I also had to give up pool league to do this course! :( I got everyone on Facebook before I left last Wednesday but still, kinda sucks.

I forgot to weigh in on Sunday!! So I still need to do that I'm thinking I might have put on weight but good muscle weight. We'll see. 

I'll leave you with the 1D song and my home gym! :P

http://youtu.be/W-TE_Ys4iwM

New Year, New Beginnings.

Happy New Year everyone! I hope that this coming year your dreams, desires & Goals will be met. I'm really looking to make 2014 a fresh start and continuing to move on from 2013.  I know it's going to be hard and the changes that need to come about will require discipline, a lot of discipline.  

On that note, my Journey to a fitter me begins again tomorrow. A friend & I are on a 3 month weight program to get fit & in shape. I plan to incorporate HIIT's into my workout regime.

Christmas was a good time with family but at the same time lots of booze, chocolate, unhealthy foods & little self control! So I packed on a little bit of holiday weight.

Anyway the next 3 months will be quite the contrast.

I bought some more gear for my home workouts and I'll attach my weight at the bottom.

Here we Go....BRING ON 2014!

"Don't you worry, don't you worry child..."

I had a really crappy day yesterday, like the worst in a long time my head was just in the wrong place and i was just over thinking a lot of things in my life, over & over & over. Im not usually in the habit of doing that but the past few days have been bad for that.

Anyway my sister was sick and i went to the store to get orange juice and chocolate to cheer her up, when i went out to the store I splurged on snacks, anything I saw and wanted I put in the basket! lol I bought chocolate, chips, smarties ice-cream, cheesecake, & some other stuff too! I told you I'm an emotional eater! I was kinda lucky because a couple invited me over to have dinner with them and their family 

so it gave me an excuse to take the majority of the unhealthy snacks over too, before I ate all of them! :/ 

Plus last night its what i needed...a distraction. 

I had an awesome dinner with them but I'm on-call this weekend and ended up getting a service call just as we all finished dinner! :( great just what I needed, as if 40+ overtime hours wasn't enough this week.

 I wasn't in the mood to leave and go work but anyway I ended up going & in the end I'm glad I did....not that I had a choice but....you know what I mean. :)

I swear God can be so amazing sometimes when your head is just in the wrong place and your just depressed and down for whatever reason he knows what you need! It truly is humbling. 

There was a false alarm at a building and the Fire Department couldn't reset the fire alarm panel so I went down to help. 

Anyway I was met by this man and I just wasn't in the mood to talk to him or listen  to anything he had to say but I dunno something in my brain told me "come on iain your a half decent guy, be nice to the guy....it's Christmas" (or something along those lines)

Anyway he was all stressed over the events of the night so he went straight into talking about fire alarm this & fire alarm that & fire dept. this....etc.

I thought to myself forget all that, I should ask how his day is going, wish him a Merry Christmas, ask if he's spending Christmas with his family and be genuinely interested in his life... so I did.

I think he was a little taken back by it, haha, think he was expecting a lot of work talk anyway I just asked him how he was doing and wished him a Merry Christmas and all that and let him talk about Christmas & his family while I fixed the fire panel. At the end of the night once I had fixed the problem he invites me up to his office and gives me a slew of gifts!  (ill post a picture) I was shocked! He also asked me something else which i cant really discuss all the details of what he asked me quite yet but if it ends up happening ill share with you on here. It blew my mind!...and it was very humbling.

 Anyway by the time I was sitting in the car about to head home I was in tears. I realized that sometimes I'm so self absorbed, that my thoughts can be so about what I am missing in my life whether it be certain people, certain situations or things in general but 

I've come to realize that some of those things are out of my control that the last few days i might have been ungrateful for the things and peopel i dont have in my life but ti also realize the experiences I've had and the people I've met and shared time with this year I am so thankful for.

I just sat there and thanked God for the things in my life that I do have right now, like family, friends & a decent job. 

There's some things I can't change when it comes to my personal life and if I can't change it why should I spend every waking moment focusing on it. I just get depressed. I really believe it's about walking in faith that we should be blessed with the things in our life and when it comes to the things we don't have that God knows our wants and desires and if its His will it will work out. Though sometimes thats difficult for our minds to wrap around, well that's how I see it anyways.

I also got a message from a good girlfriend last night and I swear this girl can tell when I'm having an off day anyway she sent me a picture which for me is hard to put into action but I get where shes coming from. 

If we continue to focus on the things we don't have now how can we ever let new opportunities, desires & relationships enter our lives... well we can't. That's the hard part.

anyway I encourage anyone reading this to be thankful for the life we have, it could be worse and if there are desires for your life...if you believe in God maybe, just maybe he knows what you need for your life and he just might be  powerful enough to work it out, being the creator of the Heaven's and the Earth and all that! :P

This will be my last post till the New Year so Merry Christmas to you all, bring on 2014 & all the new things it will bring.